10.01.10

Flapping Time.

I remember when I did my first GSCE Science Exam in year 10.
I flapped so much for that exam that when I got out I promptly burst into hysterical tears and Sarika had to come in and stop me hyperventalating :/
I honestly thought I had failed. Even though when I look back now I had memorised ever word of my science textbook.

During my actual GSCE's in the summer of last year, I flapped too.
I panicked and stressed and cried nearly every single day.
But at the same time I worked my ass off.

This time,I am doing a psychology exam in 3 days.
I am flapping. I am stressing. I am panicking.
But I should be. I have not worked my ass off.
I know that I am going to badly but I'm not doing anything about it :/

Everyone keeps telling me I am going to be okay.
When I am not.
I want to get an A or a B in this exam.
I am going to be lucky to scrap a C.
My mom was like, A B will be okay for me, thats what you need at the lowest to get into a good uni.
YAY, no pressure or anything!!

Highclare gave me SO much help. I'm not getting any now.
I am SOOO worried about wednesday.
I have slacked so much the last few months and now Im coming to see how stupid that was.

Crap.